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| 02.29.04 (12:31 am) [edit] |
Blasting music in my room again... going to skip my Kick-boxing today... Nah... me just angry with myself. Not about Kel matter... kept that stuff away... so no more matters with him.
Just angry with myself, no reasons why and don't ask why... Blah.. blah... blah... Argh!!!! What is the matter with me... mood had been very bad for the past few weeks. Hahah... I only know how to grumble over my annoyance. I had lost the ability to show my anger out... What's the matter with me... Nevermind.. in less than 12hours I will be as busy as a bee.... I will have to start my teaching... Heh... work can drown me and that's what I am looking forward to in less than 12 hours. Yupz... no time for anything and can't be bothered with anything else too... Work ah!!! Work like nobody's business.... heh...
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| Hmmm.... |
| 02.28.04 (11:10 pm) [edit] |
I was doing some packing when I discovered somethings I kept in my drawers for a good old 7-8 years. They were stuff from Kel. Good old days flashed across my mind. Nah... me not missing him. These stuff do have a story to tell...
[b]1. [u]2 medium size Forever Friends Bear[/b][/u]
One of the bear was my birthday gift. He knew I love Forever Friends Bear and he got it as a surprise for me on my birthday. Another one was bought by him when we were out. I just passed a remark that this bear is adorable and looked so cute. He excused himself and disappeared when we were shopping around. He came back with a surprise for me. He bought that bear! I was so touched! Yea... good old memories...
[b]2. [u]2 nice crystal bracelets[/b][/u]
Silly Kel! He was looking for a perfect birthday gift to come along with the Forever Friends Bear when he spotted these two nice crystals bracelets. He did not know which I would like. So he bought the two bracelets and gave it to me together with the Bear on my birthday. He really have the heart....
[b]3. [u]2 sweet jigsaw puzzles(pictures of kittens)[/b][/u]
Kel made these two jigsaw puzzles for me when I was in Polytechnic Year 2. I remembered it clearly. He just want to do something to see that smile on face and in my heart. He knew I like stuff that are hand-made. Cos' that's where sincerity lies.
[b]4. [u]a few letters/notes[/b][/u]
These were our sad past... we loved to write to each other how we felt for one another. We wrote alot... from simple notes to hand-writtened letters to electonic mails. Oh well......
[b]5. [u]a diamond necklace[/b][/u]
Kel spent half of his pay on this. It was my Christmas gift. Still remembered when he gave me this necklace, he planted a kiss on my forehead too.
There were just too many stuff from him... some were packed into boxes 7-8 years ago. Some were still lying at where they are now. He had flooded my room with memories of him... At that time, every corner of my room had an image of him.... Now, when I dug out this box again, many happy memories flooded back...
sobs.... good old days.... sweet and memorable days...
Kel loves to plant surprises for me. And I love all the surprises he had for me. He will appear from no where when you least expected him to. He will appear in my school, or places where I hang out... In each of his surprises one could clearly see his effort, love, sincerity and joy. I had yet to meet another man who will have a heart like his for me. Sometimes, I would sit down and ask myself, maybe it is good to be all alone again... to live in a world of my own and now, in a world with Jesus in my heart. If I could not meet a man who could take care of my heart, why should I still go on? Why don't I just lay my heart for Jesus Christ, whom HE never forsake me? HE loves me more than any man on Earth. Amen!!! I know for sure, Father will not leave me, HE will not break my heart, HE's always there, HE loves me and pamper with His care.
I maybe feeling paranoid now... especially when Birthday round the corner and found this box of memories. Sighs... I know for sure, in the next moment I will be fine again. Just enjoying the loving memories both Kel and I had planted in the past.... I sort of lost interest in my birthday. Nah... sort of starting to fade or lost interest in special seasons now... like a dream shattered... and do not want to build it up again...
I promised Kel 7 years ago... no matter what happened, I will stay strong and be happy.
As I wrote long ago... you know the answers to somethings even before you ask... SO do not expect and forget it totally about it. Yup, that's what I learnt in these few months.... I am going full-force into my work and fear not as Jesus is in me. My heart only beats for Jesus and till the end, I await His will and reveal the plan meant for me. MY mind will not be bothered by what would not happen and my heart will not be unhappy for what and whom I should not feel for. I live and lay my entire life into the hands of my Lord... Amen!
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| 02.28.04 (4:45 am) [edit] |
Yoz.. I am back again...:)
I skipped my ECM and ECE tutorial... went home to see my doctor. Had a terrible headache. Pop in so many pain killers yet it did not do me any good. Doctor said I am under great stress. So he gave me relaxer pills. So funny... I did not eat those pills. I cannot fall asleep now. I had to work on my assignments. I am working like as if I am made of metal. Hee... I just want to see that I had done all my stuff.
I am still in a bad mood. Sighs... not going for tomorrow's friends gathering. Will come home after going to Bugis to get a new pair of heels. Yes, to work on my assignments.
I gotta end here now. Going back to my work.
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| A Celebration Soon.... |
| 02.27.04 (5:00 am) [edit] |
Wow! In less than 3 weeks time, I am gonna turn older! As usual, friends will sabotage me again. Nah, this year I will not let them do that. Hee.... :lol:
Well... I had many gifts. This year, I am gonna wish upon for something I always wanted to have since Secondary Two. Hee... let's see if my birthday wish will come true. Nope... me not revealing it... Shhhh... Secret!
*grin* Seraph did not seem to get me a Valentine gift. Maybe his gift was yesterday's outing and the "Spirited Away" CD. Well... I am used to it and I will not expect gifts on special occasions from him. Anyway, he is too busy to shop for a perfect gift for me too. Anyway, I'll still get him stuff whenever my heart felt like doing it.
Wonder if he remembers my Birthday. I am a person who treasure all special occasions. No need to give me any gifts, as long as he remembers this day, that's the happiest! You will never catch me forgetting any special dates until the day I am senile someday. Yea! SO I am not going to remind him. I am not being mean. If he really loves me, he will remember all stuff related to me. Not testing him cos' I do not need to.
God, could I pray to you to tell him what he should know? Fear not, when God is with me. I may not see you my Lord, but I could feel your presence, your love and your blessing every moment. God, I lay Seraph into your arms again. Please bless him well and bless him with a joyful heart. In the name of our Father, Amen!
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| I am Happy! |
| 02.27.04 (4:36 am) [edit] |
I met Seraph yesterday! Wow! We met after 25 days. That's a long wait... :( We were both busy with our work and we hardly had a chance to meet. We sort of agreed in our hearts that work is important. Nevertheless, we will sms each other everyday. Love is in our hearts! We will continue to think and miss each other too!
We went to Cineleisure to catch the movie "Big Fish". Anyway, it was my suggestion to catch this. Sad to say, the show was rather boring. It was sort of a literature movie. I remember he do not like such shows. I did not know that "Big Fish" is a literature show. If I had knew it, I'll definitely not ask him along. :( I secretly peeped at him... he yawned many times during the show. The sweet part was that he did not show any disappointment or angry with me for choosing such a show to watch. I appreciated that deep in my heart. He did another wonderful thing yesterday. He sent me home. It was unexpected. I thought we will part at the bus stop outside Somerset and I shall go home on my own again, as usual. I was wrong. He said he will see me home. Honestly, I dared not think he will REALLY see me home. I intrepreted his "see me home" as "see me up the bus safely". I was over-joyed when my bus came along and he followed me up the bus! You know, when you get something out of unexpectation, it's really a joyful blessing? I had that blessing yesterday. :oops: :oops: I really hope he will see me home every time we go out, even if he could not, at least see me home after every night out. The scene when he stood at the lift and waited for me to enter the house safely, I had a sudden urge. Argh!!! At that point of time, I really wanted to run up to tell him in his arms that I felt his love and am really happy for this moment and tell him I really yearn that he will see me home (like a princess). :oops: I did not cos' I am afraid someone from my family will popped out. Hee... I'll be embarress! ... Hee... (something bad), hope that his intention of seeing me home was not because he wanted to collect his jeans. Else, my heart will be sad again... Nah... have faith in him! :wink: Oh yes, I got myself a second Bible... a Precious Moments-Angels version Bible. It's a New King James Version. A different version from my New International Version bible. I will leave this new Bible in my workplace and my first Bible in my bedroom. Now, I can have more Quiet time! Yes, must have some time spent with God! I slept well yesterday and woke up sweet in my heart.
After yesterday, I have no idea when I will meet Seraph to go out again. He had to study and work and to keep me company. I had to work too. Although he never say it out, I feel for him. It's not an easy job for him. I do not want to stress him to meet up with me. I will only wait for him to be free to ask me out each time. I will not ask for a sudden meet unless I really need it. I just want him to work on his work and studies with a clear mind, without stress from me. I may be silly, but as long as he is happy, I will be happy too. So.... at the mean time, I will just concentrate and do well in my work, as not to let him down too. :oops:
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| Finally... |
| 02.22.04 (5:26 am) [edit] |
& nbsp;Yes... tomorrow is the day... my reporting day to MGS. My 2nd Practicum will begin tomorrow... Tomorrow is just 2 hours in class(7.35am to 9.35am) then I am free all the way.
I am not excited. I am fearful instead. I am given two extreme classes. My CTs have confident in me but I lack that confidence. I just pray that I will do better than my 1st Practicum.
& nbsp;Well... My dearest Seraph is working very hard now to complete his assignment, which will be due tomorrow. Hopefully he could complete it by tonight.
& nbsp;God, please bless him with the wisdom and mentality to achieve what he needs to. Keep him in your almighty arms and shelter him from all obstacles as he work on his stuff tonight and tomorrow. Please also sustain him and bless him with good health. God, I leave him in your hands as I pray for him. In the name of our Father, Amen!
& nbsp;I am going to bed early tonight. I need to wake up early tomorrow. First day in school and I must be early. I target to be in school by 7am throughout my 7 weeks stay in MGS. Yes, I gotta leave home at 6am to travel to school. So you can imagine how early I had to wake up.
& nbsp;God I pray again... Please bless me with a good night rest and wake up fresh for a new start as tomorrow dawns. Also, please continue to bless me with the confidence as I step into the classes tomorrow and that my students are adorable to teach. Amen!
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| Emptiness... |
| 02.21.04 (5:34 am) [edit] |
Hey... do you have such a feeling... suddenly just feel empty, feel so lost, feel so lonely? I am like that now... Don't know what's the problem with me... Although Seraph and I had not met up for 20 days, but we are doing well... so that's not a problem on my relationships. Then what??? So funny. I do not know what's wrong with myself. I felt like I am going to be sick. Body feeling very lethargic. Must have suffered burnt out. Six weeks of hard work in NIE was no joke. Maybe having a phobia as I am moving into MGS next Monday. The girls I am going to teach are really going to test my limits. What a challenge this time. Gosh...
Relax? I prefer hiding in my room and blasting the CD-Player... and start blogging away... I have no mood recently to go anywhere. Just don't have the mood to go anywhere else besides staying in my room...
Sighs.... going to start another round of crazy work again next week. That'll be a good old 8 weeks to suffer again. I don't care! I must get out of Singapore at the end of this 8 weeks... and escape to some country and enjoy myself. Yes, before I start another new chapter of my life as a full-pledged teacher in another school.
Yawnz.... maybe just turn in early for tonight... start counting my sheeps... ZzzzZzzzzzZZzzzzzzz.............
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| A Time Spent on God... |
| 02.21.04 (5:13 am) [edit] |
Another sudden moment to turn to God again...
I'm dispassionate about life in general right now.
Why am I feeling like this now?
I'm typing like a bad case of something, whatever that is.
I'm in a bad case of something, whatever that is.
I told myself... "Don't stop moving. Gotta keep moving. Just keep moving."
Each one of us has a God-shaped hole in our hearts. Obviously, if it is God-shaped, then only God can fill it up, agree? It's that obvious. Roz onced shared with me how wonderful God's love is. No other man on Earth could be as loving as Father.
[i]"For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need." Hebrews 4:14-15[/i]
I have been very discouraged and felt very lonely suddenly. I could not explain this loneliness (Nope, it's nothing to do with Seraph). But the above verse comforted me greatly. God's Word always comforts. I really learn to turn to Him instead of just being ignorant.
God is my Maker, my Creator, the One who understand the nuances of my emotions, the tenderness of my heart, the vulnerability of my being, my passion, my everything.
[i]"Forgetting those things which left behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." --Philippians 3:13b-14[/i]
I will live one day at a time, not going ahead of God.
I know He will provide and He will take care of my needs. He will supply me with all riches in Christ Jesus.
That same God who promised Abraham and Sarah a son who delivered at the precise time. Father promised that He will deliver to me what's best at the best possible time. He will do it.
Amen.
Trust in God and He will provide. I feel my faith is getting tested each time I come back to this issue. He is the God who provided a way out of Egypt for the Israelites then and He is that same God who will provide a way for me.
It's like looking all around you and there is no light anywhere. It's pitch dark, out there on the plains. No lights, no sounds to guide you whatsoever. Just this still small voice telling you to just Trust and then you look up and see this glimmer of a star - your only source of light.... You feel God's presence.
So you just trod on...
Sometimes that faint star is opaqued by the passing clouds. It looks full and about to erupt into a torrent. And you grow more afraid, but that still that small voice continues to tell you, "Don't be afraid; be still and know that I am with you. I will provide for you."... That's God's words...
And the rain clouds pass...
And you trod on still...
I am afraid. I really am. I can't keep coming back to this over and over again. Will there be no end?
I don't even know what to say.
I have great faith in God and I lay my life onto His hands with no regrets. But little faith... Little faith in myself.
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| Fate ... |
| 02.20.04 (7:40 pm) [edit] |
[b]Fate [/b]
So true...
I believe every relationship in this world is built upon Fate. You reap is what you sow.
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Although I am a Christian, I still love to read different stories from different religion... The moral of the story applies to our christainity too.
Here is a Buddhist story:
There was a scholar who was to marry his fiance, but on the day of marriage, his fiance changed her mind and married someone else. The scholar was devastated and fell ill. His family seek all kinds of medical treatment for him, but still he showed no sign of recovery.
They were about to give up hope on him when a wandering monk passed by. After learning about the scholar's condition, the monk walked to the scholar's bed and took out a mirror for the dying man to see.
In the mirror, the scholar saw a vast ocean, and the naked body of a murdered woman lay on the beach. A man passed by, looked at the body, shook his head and left. Another man who passed by saw the body, took off his robes to cover the body and left. Finally came a man passing by who saw the body, dug a hole and laid the body carefully to rest before burying it.
The scene in the mirror suddenly changed. The scholar saw his fiance in a nuptial chamber and another man was lifting her wedding veil... The scholar blinked at the monk, confused.
Slowly the monk explained, "The woman whose body you saw on the beach was your fiance in her previous life. In your previous life, you were the second man who gave her his robes to cover kindness in this lifetime, she loved you for a period of time and became your fiance. However, ultimately the man whose favor she has to return for the rest of her life is the third man who buried her. And that man is now her husband."
Enlightened, the scholar sat up and recovered from his depression.
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It is truly amazing -- this thing called "Fate". There was
a movie in which the theme song went like this: "You can
say it is a big world, you can say it is a small world. But for the promise of this lifetime, we shall spend our entire lives to fulfil."
All of us are in this big grand masquerade, among the throng of people, we seek expectantly... in that electrifying moment when our fingers touch, the masks are removed to reveal our true selves.
Before this moment, we were drifting aimlessly, not knowing what we really wanted. Till you meet this particular person, you finally realize what you really want is not what you have wished for in the first place.
It amazes you that standing in front of this person is a different you! You without any mask! That's the real you.
Fate is not something meant to be forced upon. What is yours will eventually come to your arms; what is not yours will never come to be. In any case, we should not lose heart and give up on our hopes for love that is true, good and beautiful. The value of life, in a certain sense, is determined by the maturity of how we love. Of how we give and accept love.
[b][u]A good testimony to share: [/u][/b]
Just like Seraph and I. We lost each other for a year. He chose another gal, whom hurt him later. But eventually... God revealed the plan meant for both of us. When the time is right, everything will be revealed before your very eyes. We found each other back after a year of no contacts. It's been so sweet and amazing how we got back together again. Just look at us now, we are sweeter than ever, much loving than expected. What can you say about this? What is yours will be yours--Even if he left you, he'll find his way back.
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"You learn to Love, not by finding a perfect person,
but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly." :wink:
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| What is Love? |
| 02.20.04 (2:59 am) [edit] |
Have you ever ask yourself what is love?
Have you been in love before?
How should love be?
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"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. " -- Corinthians 13
[i]Everyone had alwayz a Mass Transit Railway inside their heart and the destination of the railway is called "Hope". However, due to love, they would somehow lost their way inside those crowded cabins, resulting in either in boarding of a wrong train or alighting at the wrong station. As it was, many keep on losing their direction, feeling lost and getting hurt. Forturnately, the journey for recovery would not take long.........
cos [b]someday[/b], [b]someone [/b]or [b]something [/b]or even your [b]ownself [/b]will eventually find "the road" out...[/i] :wink:
Have you found your love yet?
Do not fret.
Leave it to the hands of God, or if you believe, leave it to the hands of Fate to decide for you.
When the time is right, you'll meet and found your true love.
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| Last Day!!! |
| 02.19.04 (4:46 am) [edit] |
& nbsp;I am back once again... Had been a very busy week. Had completed all my assignments and tests. Today is my last day on NIE campus.
& nbsp;I planned and organised a mini-farewell party for Dr Ng. He was the one and only tutor who followed us through each semester for the whole of these two years of training. Yes, some how like a mentor for us. I feel we should show our appreciation through our actions. So just two days ago, I planned and instructed a few friends which cake to get, what gift to get him and what to buy for this celebration. It turned out nicely and well for him. We had a test before the celebration. We took photos with him and had the cake together. We had a reunion celebration before this class is officially dismissed. How sad! I was very sad then. I really enjoyed his class. So much fun. I will also miss my discussion group mates. We worked well and had a wonderful time for these 2 years. Now, it's the end. How sad... Dr Ng gave me a call in the evening and thanked me for planning this for him. He knew it that it's my idea. He also told me that he was very sad and will miss us too. He held back his sadness just now. I could see that in his eyes. This tutor is a friend to me... I am his Research Assistant. Now, that I am going to leave NIE, he need to get a replacement. I enjoyed working with him too. I am glad he enjoyed this celebration. At least, I am sure that I had something good out of today. Know what, emotional me will definitely not miss any tears... I cried on the phone when we discussed and recalled how these 2 years were. I just could not fight back those tears...
& nbsp;These 2 years was really an experience. Gain some but lost some... Like what Seraph said "A chapter ends... another begins". My life chapter in NIE going to end and going to move on to another new chapter in my life... Ups and downs are unavoidable in life. Just have to learn and move on. "Everyday and in every way, I get better and better." I promise myself and Seraph that I would not let myself be sad for too long. By this weekend, I have to prepare myself for the new challenges ahead. Memories stay in my heart. Good old days will still be there no matter what.
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| 02.12.04 (5:27 am) [edit] |
& nbsp; Yoz.. I am back again...:)
& nbsp; I skipped my ECM and ECE tutorial... went home to see my doctor. Had a terrible headache. Pop in so many pain killers yet it did not do me any good. Doctor said I am under great stress. So he gave me relaxer pills. So funny... I did not eat those pills. I cannot fall asleep now. I had to work on my assignments. I am working like as if I am made of metal. Hee... I just want to see that I had done all my stuff.
& nbsp; I am still in a bad mood. Sighs... not going for tomorrow's friends gathering. Will come home after going to Bugis to get a new pair of heels. Yes, to work on my assignments.
I gotta end her now. Going back to my work.
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| Dear-Dear Bad Mood :( |
| 02.09.04 (4:42 am) [edit] |
Today had been a good day for me. My parents had finally gotten our keys for the new flat. I had also completed my all my ECM assignments. Now I am left with my ECE critical reviews of the journals.
Sometimes, it's hard not to believe that Seraph and me have telepathy. When I am very depressed, he'll sms at the right time. Or when I miss him or think of him dearly, he'll sms me too. Likewise, when he was thinking of me, I'll sms him. Like today, he was in a bad mood. I sms him. Then I got to know that he was in a bad mood. I guessed it was regarding his work. I allow him to have some moments of silence. He also promised me that he'll talk to me about it after that. Guys do not like gals to be pestering them to ask them what happened. In times of problems, guys would prefer to handle these on their own. Sort of, let them be in their "cave" to settle the problems. When they are done, they'll walked out from the "cave" and share with you what had happened. So all I could do now is to be patient and show my care for him. He must be in a bad mood.
Dear, Huggies... don't be in the "cave" for too long. I am waiting for you out here. I wait for you to share with me what actually happened, which you'll always do. I am thankful for that. Although I could not do anything for you now, I just want you to know, you still have me here. Whatever happened, please take care. Even not for your sake, it's for me. Hugs....
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| Productive day!!! |
| 02.08.04 (8:32 am) [edit] |
WoW!!! I am super productive today! :D
Let's recall on what I had done for today. I started and completed my ECM ICT assignment this morning.
Then I prepare Seraph his second bottle of 66 shiny colorful stars with 99 "I LOVE YOU" stars and with 99 shiny heart shapes. Yupz.. all in a nice "I love U" bottle tied with a maroon ribbon and hung a heart accesory on the bottle. Hee... looks pretty nice. I really could not bear to give this bottle to him. Hee... hope that some day both Seraph and I could share this bottle together under the same roof... :oops:
I went for my Kick-boxing in the evening and came home at about 8.30pm. After dinner and a good shower, I started on my ECM Report. Yupz... completed that too!
Very soon, me and my brother will be cooking our supper before we go to sleep....
Oh yes... Seraph and me will be celebrating our Valentine's Day on the weekdays. We had yet to confirm the day to celebrate... heee... Look forward to giving him his gift. Hmmm... wonder did he get me a gift too? He does not know what to get for me, just like last Xmas. Let's see how it goes.
Time for supper..... Nitez and have a good nite rest!!! :wink:
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| Continue to Lay my faith in the arms of God... |
| 02.07.04 (4:47 am) [edit] |
[b][u]My earnest prayer for tonight:[/u][/b]
Lord, please send along the way people with passion and a heart for You that we may serve to encourage and spur each other along the way. Let not my path be distracted again by people with different aims and purposes in life.
Let my heart only beat for You, my Lover, my Friend, my Companion. Let me find my all sufficiency in You even as the world around me tells me otherwise.
You have made me and You know my deepest desires but I will continue to trust that You know what's best for me at the best time. It may not be now, it may not be ever, but I will trust that everything's only for the best for me.
For I love You and are a called according to Your purpose - [i]Romans 8:28[/i]
Hide me under Thy wings and keep me close to You always so that when the world around me changes, I will always have Your hand with me to guide me back to what's real and what's true.
Lord, I love You with as much love as I know. Let not my affections be wavered again. Keep my sights on You.
I love You Father.
In Jesus' name,
Amen.
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I ask God for directions for my heart again,
I ask God not only to tell me but also to let Seraph feel what I am going through,
I ask God to enlighten me with the path I should proceed on.
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HE was always there, encouraging me to never give up, pulling me as close to Him as I was willing to come. “Come closer, my child. Depend on me completely and I will see you through this, no matter what the outcome”, He promised. And He did. Even though sometimes I questioned God at every turn, He kept giving me the same answer. “Hang on, I am with you. We can do this together”.
If you sometimes feel like a lost lamb, broken and hurting, hang on! God, your loving Shepherd, will pick you up, hold you tightly with HIS almighty arms and carry you until you can stand up again. No matter how lost you may be, no matter how many times you have wandered away from God, HE will never push you away, instead HE will always call on you to come closer.
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| Asked but not Answered... |
| 02.07.04 (4:28 am) [edit] |
& nbsp;Hee... asked Seraph about the friends' gathering. He did not reply to indicate whether he will be coming along or not. If I am not wrong, his silence is an indication he is not joing us. If that's the case, my guess is right again. Or, is he still sleeping and had yet to read my sms message? Sighs... & nbsp;As I said before... ask or don't ask the answer will still be the same. Well... at least I had asked. Then, I'll just have to go to the gathering and be a gooseberry for almost 2 couples out of 4... I'll never ask Seraph out for any friend's gathering or functions after this rejection. Yah... what's the point of asking and getting the same disappointment when you already knew the answer... :(
& nbsp;Anyway, if he suddenly agrees to come along, I'll be more than delight. I just hope my guesses are all wrong and all my assumptions are wrong too. And he will join us this Friday. I am getting very paranoid after I had a quarrel with mum. Sighs... just hope my fairy God-mother will appear and grant me a wish.... to bring Seraph right before my very eyes...
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| Mummy nagging again... |
| 02.06.04 (6:48 pm) [edit] |
Early in the morning, mummy nagged at me again... Over the same matter... This was what happened on the 2nd Feb, the day Seraph and I met to watch "Peter Pan" together. Mum and me had a bad quarrel. Wait... Hear me out first before judging me as a bad girl to quarrel with my dear mummy.
On the 2nd Feb, she nagged that Seraph is not a caring man. Her reason was a silly one. Simply because he never sent me home. I told her it was me who asked him not to send me home. She insisted that if he cares for my safety, he should sent me home. She added that it is a man's responsibility to take care of their woman's safety. Well... this I cannot defend. What she says does make sense and is true. So mummy says he is not caring, if he really cares, he'll insist that he sees me safely home even if I said "no need to". Well...then she proceed and warned me that some guys are just out there to toy with girls' hearts. She adviced me to be careful. Then, she asked me to ask my girlfriends... Jinhui(she's my closest good friend since Secondary school till now). Her boyfriend stays in the East and she stays in the West. Her man will never let her home alone, even in broad daylight. Mummy asked me to see it for myself... I got angry and argued with her. Such things I could not command. If he has the heart and intention, he'll do it for me. Else, if I asked him to do it, it will be meaningless. Somethings I just have to ask but somethings has to be done by the other party, provided the other party has the heart. Right or not??? Anyway, how Seraph treats me I know it clearly in my heart. Mum has an expectation... she wants to make sure whoever this guy is, he has to take care of me. Now, you know why before I could not wait to let them meet?
& nbsp; Then she brought up Kel case... so we argued from there. There was once a man who really really cares, loves and pampers me. Kel's love for me is not superficial one at that time. Kel will really die for me if he has to. But mum does not like! Now that she had successfully chased Kel away, is she trying to force me to break up with my current one too???
I am just a simple gal, please give me a small space to breathe...I am not one who jumps into a relationship. She should have known me well enough. I even updated her about Seraph and I. I did not keep things in the dark from her. I just want her to know what I am doing and let her be assured that I am fine. Till today, mum and I had not spoken to each other. This was a bad quarrel after eight solid years... after I broke off with Kel.
Now, you all know why I am so moody? Why I suddenly felt like going to the beach? Why I am so fearful of the history repeating itself? The torture was so great that I fear for the same to happen. Honestly, my life have been a very happy one when I found Seraph back. Friends see the smile I carry in my heart. They are happy for me too. They tried their best to cheer me up for the past eight years... to no avail. Now... will this smile still be in my heart for long? I really do not know. I knew I am expecting to hear something from somene and waiting for something to happen. But I really have no idea what it is. I just have to wait upon it to take place.
My heart is very tired... same setback as in the past. My heart has no more energy to go fight another battle with mum... Just have to rely on God's will and plan to sustain me. I leave the rest to God... I am too tired to do anything here... looking face to face with Seraph, my heart hurts and will aches... looking at our photos, my tears will welled up in my eyes. What am I suppose to do? I buried myself in my work... to get myself so tired that I go to sleep immediately every night. Another self-torture again... heh :(
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| LOnEly ValEnTine's DaY... |
| 02.06.04 (5:29 am) [edit] |
& nbsp; Bingo! So smart of me! I have made the right guess... my valentine's day will be spent alone again. Hee... not that bad lah... :wink: That stupid school to hold a contact time(meeting) on Valentine's day! Seraph could not spend this lovely day with me. Anyway, we [b][i]might [/i][/b] be celebrating this day in advance or a few days after the actual Valentine's day. Why I use 'might'?... you'll know when the time comes... hope I am truly wrong this time... Well... to clelebrate or not is not really important to me. Everyday is Valentine's day to us. Just that 14th Feb is an international romancing day for all couples. Of course, I would be happy if I could spend this day with him. Anyway, this is not his fault. If there is no meeting on that day, I trust that he'll spend this day with me.
& nbsp; His gift is more or less ready... So am I going to do next Saturday? I had made that day free... now just have to find some where to go or do to occupied that day. I will be completing all my assignments by next Thursday. Yupz...that's an early dateline I gave myself. Next Friday will be my friends' gathering. I had yet to ask Seraph along, which we agreed to bring our partner along for the dinner. Well... I think I know the answer even before I ask... Kel tried encouraging me to ask. He said that the answer may not be as bad as I thought. Maybe because I had asked him before in the past and I had negative feedback. So sort of expected the same answer to be given to me again. Rather to be in doubt than to be disappointed?!? I am rather moody these few days... over what happened on 2nd Feb... I sort of lost heart... Everyday I will look(many times) at the photos we took... Many flashbacks, many memories... tears will welled up in my eyes... sighs... FEAR... GREATEST FEAR... FEAR... History is repeating... the darkness has entered my door.... What will I see if I opened my eyes?
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| Sounds of Waves... |
| 02.05.04 (4:42 am) [edit] |
[i]in my room, CD player playing Canon in D major[/i]
I have a habit. When I am sad or I am not in a good mood, I'll be listening to this piece... Canon in D major. I have many different versions of this music. Now, I am listening to the one with the sounds of waves at the background of the music. I love the sea... maybe because I am a typical Piscean. Love the sound of waves, the breeze... I could just sit by the beach for hours and hours without fidgetting... my mind will be running with my thoughts, my reflections...
I have a sudden urge to be at the beach now... My heart is not lost but my mind is troubled... but indirectly, it had affected my emotions in my heart.
Since I could not free myself from these thoughts, I have to "occupy" my mind... I work like nobody's business today... just want my mind to keep going and get very occupied with my work... Did not pause to relax till now... Escape from reality... I have no better choice for the moment.
& nbsp; I must learn to be myself again. To be vulnerable and not to act a brave front when I am breaking inside. I am also a human, a woman with feelings, with a fragile heart to be taken care of. I really cannot afford to see myself walking into that dark room alone again... once I went in, I knew this time I will never get to come out again, and definitely not alive anymore.... not a joke here... close friends know what kind of torture I had been through.
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| Touched... Happy... Yet Sad... :( |
| 02.04.04 (4:50 am) [edit] |
[i]"Katherine, Katherine... Why does your life always filled with so much obstacles?" [/i] :cry: I am asking myself this question for the whole of today.
I met Seraph and we caught "Peter Pan". I did not truly pay attention and enjoyed the show. I was thinking of some things during the show. I only caught about 40% of the entire show. Seraph was very observant. He felt that I was really not fine. I lied to him. For once, I lied to him. I hate myself. I really do not know what to do? I asked God, God did not answer me. I wished I could just write an account of what was running in my head now and what had happened just before I met Seraph. But, I could not. At least, not now. sobs... :cry:
I brewed Seraph "Kiba Flip" from Nate... I bought this beverage at Takashimaya. Yupz... planned long ago to prepare some beverage for him. I knew that he'll be marking his books later, just wanted to make sure he stays healthy. "Kiba Flip" is a drink full of vitamins and minerals. It consist of dried banana, cherry, grapes, pear and hibiscus. It tastes like Ribena and the color of the drink is red. Looks like a "Love Potion". :wink: Ohhh... yah, I added honey to make the drink sweet. Sweet sweet drink for a lovely Seraph's heart.... :oops:
Do you know why I like to make gifts for my love ones? Simply because these are things money cannot buy. These gifts will be unique, one and only one in this world. :wink:
I am touched that Seraph is making all efforts to get the "Spirited Away" animation for me. I am so glad for his thoughts...
Now... Do you believe that history of misery will repeat itself? When history really happen and repeat itself, how would you react this time round? How will the ending be? To tell or not to tell? To love or not to love? Sighs...
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If telling will solve the problems, I will... But after telling, the worst happened, could I take it this time round? The last time this happened, it took me 5 years to get over it... It was a very self-destructive and very heartache life... and that lasted for 5 years...
So now that history has repeated for itself, I am given the choice to tell or not to tell... I fear... I really, really, really fear. Those 5 years of torture had been a nightmare for me. I really fear to go back to those days... dark and lonely... That's one of the greatest fear I have... only close friends will know what I meant. They went through those dark days with me...
Seraph, I do not know if you'll read this blog. But I still have to write this... In my mind now are images of you. How you brightened up my life. How you brought joy, life and love into my life. I thank you for all the sweet moments we have shared together. I thank you for all the efforts you put into this relationship. Whatever and no matter what, I just have to say "I really miss you." :cry:
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| Happy day! |
| 02.02.04 (5:02 am) [edit] |
Well... Seraph and I did not managed to catch "Peter Pan" today. :cry: We did not have enough time to watch it today. We went to Sim Lim to get my Canon Ixus 400 and then head down to Funan to redeem my free 128MB Compact Flash. After which, he took the MRT back to Bugis again to meet his Dad. They were going to get a new computer. As for me, I took the train to Lavender and took a bus home from there.
Hey! Guess who I bump into today... Kel!!! :D :D I met Kel and Xiangru. I was more than happy :D to see this old friend after so many years. Well, he really had put on lots of weight. Hee... :D Lots of thoughts came flashing across my mind at that time. :wink:
Memories of how we became couples in the past, how much we obstacles we had went through between Mum, him and me, how many friends envious with the two of us, how we broke off, how deep our love for one another was, how much tears we have shed and joy we had shared... So much, so much.... As what Kel once suggested, we could write a book on this. Today, I met him together with Seraph. Was like everything planned nicely... God, did you planed this to happen today? It was a good meet. Indeed! Truthfully, this meet up facing Kel, Seraph and me... I asked my heart, who I saw and how I feel at that moment. I found Seraph in my heart and I felt happy. :oops: I did not get upset when I saw Kel... which I always thought I will. I really had put my past behind me. :wink: I finally proved it to myself. :wink: In addition, I felt so happy when I held Seraph by his arm and told him that Kel was my Ex-boyfriend. I confessed to him what's in mind and how I felt at that moment. :wink: Being frank about my feelings to him and beng truthful in my words is my personality. I am glad Kel appeared and let me have the chance to know who I truly love now and what I am afraid of losing now. Although those past came flashing back, I believe it's a norm. Kel and I had went through so much... can say it was like in those romance drama... heee... of course I'll think back about those days. But still deep in my heart, is the love for Seraph and not Kel now and forever... :oops: :oops:
Another happy thing to share, Seraph and I finally took our neoprints. :oops: As it was two different ones, I took it to a photo-developing shop to scan both cards and get all the four cards laminated. Yupz... so that both of us have the two different cards. I was looking at our love photographs when I was on the bus home. You should seen the smiling heart inside me. :oops: :oops: :oops: Smiling so sweetly and so glad that I could shed my tears... :oops:
Anyway, we'll meet up this Wednesday to catch "Peter Pan". I;m going to bed early today too... had an early class tomorrow....
Good nitez... sweet dreamz.... :wink:
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| No Night View Again.... |
| 02.01.04 (5:54 am) [edit] |
& nbsp; Sighs... no night view again... :cry:
& nbsp; Tomorrow Seraph and me will meet up. We'll catch "Peter Pan", shop around then head to Sim Lim to grab our stuff. Actually, I did not let him know my plan. The last time I asked him to accompany me to see the night view, he had to go home and help his Dad with the stocks. That's before Xmas last year. Sighs... :(
& nbsp; Well... to meet up is better than not meeting up. At least he still made a great effort to accompany me to watch "Peter Pan". Weekend tickets are expensive, you know. But he did not cancel the outing just because of that. I truly appreciate his effort. :wink: :wink:
& nbsp; I pray upon the stars and hope that one day we could go back to the first place where we first went out many years ago... Sitting under the stars, gentle breeze blowing, Nice soothing sounds from the waves and singing our hearts out. :oops:
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| Plan for tomorrow... |
| 02.01.04 (3:52 am) [edit] |
& nbsp; Tomorrow, I'll be meeting Seraph... I planned to buy my Canon IXUS S400 Digital Camera. But now, I am hesitating. That will be 800 bucks. Not a cheap toy to buy, you know. Me not a rich person. I think I should put my plan for getting a new digital camera aside. Maybe spend it on something for my Mummy... She saw a rocking chair and she loves it. Will get it for her instead, surprise her!!! yEA... ME LOVE SURPRISES.... :oops:
& nbsp;Well... so I told Seraph of my change of plans for tomorrow. Instead of buying camera, we'll catch "Peter Pan". He replied that we talk again tonight. Sounds like ".. if not buying camera we'll not meet tomorrow". Sighs... Let's see what will be the decision later...
& nbsp;If tomorrow we will go catch "Peter Pan", we could catch it at Suntec and go see the night view... I am not pinning high hopes on tomorrow... Maybe he needs to go home and do his marking or Lesson Plan/Record Book.
& nbsp; I once told a man not to pin expectations, so as not to get disappointments. Yupz, that "man" I'm refering to was him. But I am now pinning expectations on him... Sighs... What am I doing? My greatest FEAR is that History will repeat itself. In all cases, if History were to repeat itself, how will the ending be this time round? :? [LINE]
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| Big Heartache... |
| 02.01.04 (1:53 am) [edit] |
Yoz... I'm back again!
Had a busy schedule today... I attended the morning church service at 9.30am. After which, I met up with my Mummy to visit a contractor at Bukit Gombak to view our new house's quotation. I just got home not long ago.
& nbsp; Both Mummy and me were so fed up with them just now. Never will you get to see me lost my temper with these people. But today I was so fed up. They did the quotation but forgot to draw the plan out. Fed up right!!! It's wasting our time! So I told them in a very angry and disappointed tone that we will really have to reconsider our decision as to whether we should let them renovate our house. Such an irresponsible contractor. How could we be assured to let them handle our new flat?
As I will be sharing a room with Mummy, so the final say is still my mummy. So the study room will be my only main concern. I want them to design the studyroom to my satisfaction. I am expecting a simple yet nice design. Simple is good, you see. No need to be 'stylo'. Yet, they did not draw the plan out. I made them drew it out right before my very eyes. So angry with them. Show them my black face and can't be bothered attitude just now. I told Mummy that I, personally, do not like this nasty man to handle my studyroom. Mummy agreed too.
Headache ah... I am headache over my studyroom, so I can expect how headache my parents are to handle the whole house. We had to finalise all decision by next Tuesday. Simply because, next Monday we'll be going down to HDB to collect our keys. After which, we will hand over the house keys for our contractors to start work. Sighs... Then, I'll have to hunt for new furnitures... Beds, cushions, armchairs, stationeries for studyroom, lamps, mirrors, and other nitty-gritty stuff...
Seraph sms just... He's so sweet... [i]"just a sms to saying... thinking of you... hugs"[/i]. The sms came in the right time for me! My tears really welled up in my eyes. Mummy asked me what happened? Hee... Just felt touched that he sms me to tell me this. Truly appreciated him for this :) Love him... Yea!
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For the Month of December
To Do List:
- Catch at least 2 movies
- Gym sessions once every week
- Bible sharing every week
- Every Tuesday nite out
Schedule:
December 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Blade Trinity
2. National Treasure
November 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Polar Express
2. The Incredibles
October 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Wimbledon
Schedule:
September 2004
1: Teacher's Day
4: 1-wk Vacation Starts
5: Pilates[11]
5: Pilates[11]
6: Orchard(Sushi Tei)
8: Raffles Place(Sakae Sushi)
10: Hair Spa
11: Dira’s Wedding
12: 1-wk Vacation Ends
12: Kick-boxing[1]
17: West Mall(Sakae Sushi)
19: Kick-boxing[2]
26: Pilates[1]
26: Kick-boxing[3]
Movies Caught:
1.Garfield
2.The Terminal
Schedule:
August 2004
1: Pilates[6]
3: Play at DBS Art Ctr-Woman in Black
4: NIE(Collect gown)
6: Gym & Movie
8: Pilates[7]
9: National Day
10: Gym & Outing
13: NIE Graduation(SIS)
15: Pilates[8]
17: Yes! You stand a chance Seraph(2003)
17: Holland Village(Michelangelo's)
21: Submit Application(SIM)
22: Pilates[9]
23: Seraph's DOB
24: Orchard(DOME)
28: Teacher's Day Dinner(Suntec)
29: Pilates[10]
Movies Caught:
1.House of Daggers
2.The Village
3.The NoteBook
July 2004
I was Missing In Action
Recuperating from the broken Relationship ...
Movies Caught:
1. King Arthur
June 2004
I was Missing In Action
28: 1st day in School
Movies Caught:
1. Home on the Range
2. Shrek 2
3. Harry Potter & The Prisoner of Azkaban
4. Chronicles of the Riddick
May 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Van Helsing
April 2004
2: CT EL Obs(3)
4: Kickboxing[4]
5: CT Maths Obs(4)
6: CT EL Obs(5)
9: Good Friday
10: Brother's Birthday!
9: Good Friday
11: Kickboxing[5]
14: Sup Meets CTs
16: Last Day of Pract II
18: Kickboxing[6]
24: EED200 Report
25: Kickboxing[7]
Movies Caught:
1. 50 First Dates
2. Koma
March 2004
1: Gym Session
7: Kickboxing[12]
8: Mum's Birthday!
8: Gym Session
13: 1-wk Vacation Starts
14: Kickboxing[1]
19: My Birthday!
21: Kickboxing[2]
21: Outing(Seraph)
21: 1-wk Vacation Ends
23: CT Maths Obs(1)
24: CT Sci Obs(2)
26: NIE Sup Obs(1)
28: Kickboxing[3]
30: NIE Sup Obs(2)
Movies Caught:
1. The Haunted Mansion
February 2004
1: Hari Raya Haji
2: Outing(Seraph)
3: EED200 Grp Report
4: Outing(Seraph)
6: NIE Pract II Posting
8: Kickboxing[8]
9: HDB(Get keys)
13: Visit new house
13: Pals Gathering
14: Valentine's Day
15: Kickboxing[9]
16: NIE Bazaar
17: NIE Bazaar
17: ECM202 Quiz
18: NIE Bazaar
20: ECE202 Ind + Grp
20: ECM202 Ind
22: Kickboxing[10]
23: 1st Day(Pract II)
26: Outing(Seraph)
29: Kickboxing[11]
Movies Caught:
1. Peter Pan
2. Big Fish
January 2004
1: New Year
4: Kickboxing[4]
6: Appointment(Hair)
7: Outing(Seraph)
11: Appointment(Hair)
11: Kickboxing[5]
12: NIE Sem 4 Starts
12: Outing(Seraph)
13: Outing(Seraph)
14: NIE Bazaar
15: NIE Bazaar
16: NIE Bazaar
16: Outing(Seraph)
18: Kickboxing[6]
21: CNY Eve
21: Outing(Seraph)
22: Chinese New Year
23: Chinese New Year
25: Kickboxing[7]
28: NIE Pract II Briefing
28: Outing(Seraph)
Movies Caught:
1. The Last Samurai
New Year Resolutions:
- Continue to think positive
- Have at least an overseas trip
- Have more relaxations than work
- Eat healthy and exercise regularly
- Be more successful in my life and work
- Be more joyful and loving at heart than 2003
- Find my Mr Right and be more down-to-earth
- A new home, A new working environment, A new me! A fresh start!
For the Month of August
To Do List:
- Catch at least 2 movies
- Gym sessions once every week
- Bible sharing every week
- Every Tuesday nite out
Schedule:
August 2004
1: Pilates[6]
3: Play at DBS Art Ctr "Woman in Black"
4: NIE(Collect gown)
6: Gym + Movie
8: Pilates[7]
9: National Day
10: Gym + Outing
13: NIE Graduation(SIS)
15: Pilates[8]
17: "Yes! You stand a chance, Seraph"-2003
17: Holland Village(Michelangelo's)
21: Submit Application(SIM)
22: Pilates[9]
23: Seraph's DOB
24: Orchard(DOME)
28: Teacher's Day Dinner(Suntec)
29: Pilates[10]
Movies Caught:
1.House of Daggers
2.The Village
3.NoteBook
July 2004
I was Missing In Action
Recuperating from the broken Relationship ...
Movies Caught:
1. King Arthur
June 2004
I was Missing In Action
28: 1st day in School
Movies Caught:
1. Home on the Range
2. Shrek 2
3. Harry Potter & The Prisoner of Azkaban
4. Chronicles of the Riddick
May 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Van Helsing
April 2004
2: CT EL Obs(3)
4: Kickboxing[4]
5: CT Maths Obs(4)
6: CT EL Obs(5)
9: Good Friday
10: Brother's Birthday!
9: Good Friday
11: Kickboxing[5]
14: Sup Meets CTs
16: Last Day of Pract II
18: Kickboxing[6]
24: EED200 Report
25: Kickboxing[7]
Movies Caught:
1. 50 First Dates
2. Koma
March 2004
1: Gym Session
7: Kickboxing[12]
8: Mum's Birthday!
8: Gym Session
13: 1-wk Vacation Starts
14: Kickboxing[1]
19: My Birthday!
21: Kickboxing[2]
21: Outing(Seraph)
21: 1-wk Vacation Ends
23: CT Maths Obs(1)
24: CT Sci Obs(2)
26: NIE Sup Obs(1)
28: Kickboxing[3]
30: NIE Sup Obs(2)
Movies Caught:
1. The Haunted Mansion
February 2004
1: Hari Raya Haji
2: Outing(Seraph)
3: EED200 Grp Report
4: Outing(Seraph)
6: NIE Pract II Posting
8: Kickboxing[8]
9: HDB(Get keys)
13: Visit new house
13: Pals Gathering
14: Valentine's Day
15: Kickboxing[9]
16: NIE Bazaar
17: NIE Bazaar
17: ECM202 Quiz
18: NIE Bazaar
20: ECE202 Ind + Grp
20: ECM202 Ind
22: Kickboxing[10]
23: 1st Day(Pract II)
26: Outing(Seraph)
29: Kickboxing[11]
Movies Caught:
1. Peter Pan
2. Big Fish
January 2004
1: New Year
4: Kickboxing[4]
6: Appointment(Hair)
7: Outing(Seraph)
11: Appointment(Hair)
11: Kickboxing[5]
12: NIE Sem 4 Starts
12: Outing(Seraph)
13: Outing(Seraph)
14: NIE Bazaar
15: NIE Bazaar
16: NIE Bazaar
16: Outing(Seraph)
18: Kickboxing[6]
21: CNY Eve
21: Outing(Seraph)
22: Chinese New Year
23: Chinese New Year
25: Kickboxing[7]
28: NIE Pract II Briefing
28: Outing(Seraph)
Movies Caught:
1. The Last Samurai
New Year Resolutions:
- Continue to think positive
- Have at least an overseas trip
- Have more relaxations than work
- Eat healthy and exercise regularly
- Be more successful in my life and work
- Be more joyful and loving at heart than 2003
- Find my Mr Right and be more down-to-earth
- A new home, A new working environment, A new me! A fresh start!
For the Month of August
To Do List:
- Catch at least 2 movies
- Gym sessions once every week
- Bible sharing every week
- Every Tuesday nite out
Schedule:
August 2004
1: Pilates[6]
3: Play at DBS Art Ctr "Woman in Black"
4: NIE(Collect gown)
6: Gym & Movie
8: Pilates[7]
9: National Day
10: Gym & Outing
13: NIE Graduation(SIS)
15: Pilates[8]
17: "Yes! You stand a chance, Seraph"-2003
17: Holland Village(Michelangelo's)
21: Submit Application(SIM)
22: Pilates[9]
23: Seraph's DOB
24: Orchard(DOME)
28: Teacher's Day Dinner(Suntec)
29: Pilates[10]
Movies Caught:
1.House of Daggers
2.The Village
3.NoteBook
July 2004
I was Missing In Action
Recuperating from the broken Relationship ...
Movies Caught:
1. King Arthur
June 2004
I was Missing In Action
28: 1st day in School
Movies Caught:
1. Home on the Range
2. Shrek 2
3. Harry Potter & The Prisoner of Azkaban
4. Chronicles of the Riddick
May 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Van Helsing
April 2004
2: CT EL Obs(3)
4: Kickboxing[4]
5: CT Maths Obs(4)
6: CT EL Obs(5)
9: Good Friday
10: Brother's Birthday!
9: Good Friday
11: Kickboxing[5]
14: Sup Meets CTs
16: Last Day of Pract II
18: Kickboxing[6]
24: EED200 Report
25: Kickboxing[7]
Movies Caught:
1. 50 First Dates
2. Koma
March 2004
1: Gym Session
7: Kickboxing[12]
8: Mum's Birthday!
8: Gym Session
13: 1-wk Vacation Starts
14: Kickboxing[1]
19: My Birthday!
21: Kickboxing[2]
21: Outing(Seraph)
21: 1-wk Vacation Ends
23: CT Maths Obs(1)
24: CT Sci Obs(2)
26: NIE Sup Obs(1)
28: Kickboxing[3]
30: NIE Sup Obs(2)
Movies Caught:
1. The Haunted Mansion
February 2004
1: Hari Raya Haji
2: Outing(Seraph)
3: EED200 Grp Report
4: Outing(Seraph)
6: NIE Pract II Posting
8: Kickboxing[8]
9: HDB(Get keys)
13: Visit new house
13: Pals Gathering
14: Valentine's Day
15: Kickboxing[9]
16: NIE Bazaar
17: NIE Bazaar
17: ECM202 Quiz
18: NIE Bazaar
20: ECE202 Ind + Grp
20: ECM202 Ind
22: Kickboxing[10]
23: 1st Day(Pract II)
26: Outing(Seraph)
29: Kickboxing[11]
Movies Caught:
1. Peter Pan
2. Big Fish
January 2004
1: New Year
4: Kickboxing[4]
6: Appointment(Hair)
7: Outing(Seraph)
11: Appointment(Hair)
11: Kickboxing[5]
12: NIE Sem 4 Starts
12: Outing(Seraph)
13: Outing(Seraph)
14: NIE Bazaar
15: NIE Bazaar
16: NIE Bazaar
16: Outing(Seraph)
18: Kickboxing[6]
21: CNY Eve
21: Outing(Seraph)
22: Chinese New Year
23: Chinese New Year
25: Kickboxing[7]
28: NIE Pract II Briefing
28: Outing(Seraph)
Movies Caught:
1. The Last Samurai
New Year Resolutions:
- Continue to think positive
- Have at least an overseas trip
- Have more relaxations than work
- Eat healthy and exercise regularly
- Be more successful in my life and work
- Be more joyful and loving at heart than 2003
- Find my Mr Right and be more down-to-earth
- A new home, A new working environment, A new me! A fresh start!
For the Month of August
To Do List:
- Catch at least 2 movies
- Gym sessions once every week
- Bible sharing every week
- Every Tuesday nite out
Schedule:
August 2004
1: Pilates[6]
3: Play at DBS Art Ctr "Woman in Black"
4: NIE(Collect gown)
6: Gym + Movie
8: Pilates[7]
9: National Day
10: Gym + Outing
13: NIE Graduation(SIS)
15: Pilates[8]
17: "Yes! You stand a chance, Seraph"-2003
17: Holland Village(Michelangelo's)
21: Submit Application(SIM)
22: Pilates[9]
23: Seraph's DOB
24: Orchard(DOME)
28: Teacher's Day Dinner(Suntec)
29: Pilates[10]
Movies Caught:
1.House of Daggers
2.The Village
3.NoteBook
July 2004
I was Missing In Action
Recuperating from the broken Relationship ...
Movies Caught:
1. King Arthur
June 2004
I was Missing In Action
28: 1st day in School
Movies Caught:
1. Home on the Range
2. Shrek 2
3. Harry Potter & The Prisoner of Azkaban
4. Chronicles of the Riddick
May 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Van Helsing
April 2004
2: CT EL Obs(3)
4: Kickboxing[4]
5: CT Maths Obs(4)
6: CT EL Obs(5)
9: Good Friday
10: Brother's Birthday!
9: Good Friday
11: Kickboxing[5]
14: Sup Meets CTs
16: Last Day of Pract II
18: Kickboxing[6]
24: EED200 Report
25: Kickboxing[7]
Movies Caught:
1. 50 First Dates
2. Koma
March 2004
1: Gym Session
7: Kickboxing[12]
8: Mum's Birthday!
8: Gym Session
13: 1-wk Vacation Starts
14: Kickboxing[1]
19: My Birthday!
21: Kickboxing[2]
21: Outing(Seraph)
21: 1-wk Vacation Ends
23: CT Maths Obs(1)
24: CT Sci Obs(2)
26: NIE Sup Obs(1)
28: Kickboxing[3]
30: NIE Sup Obs(2)
Movies Caught:
1. The Haunted Mansion
February 2004
1: Hari Raya Haji
2: Outing(Seraph)
3: EED200 Grp Report
4: Outing(Seraph)
6: NIE Pract II Posting
8: Kickboxing[8]
9: HDB(Get keys)
13: Visit new house
13: Pals Gathering
14: Valentine's Day
15: Kickboxing[9]
16: NIE Bazaar
17: NIE Bazaar
17: ECM202 Quiz
18: NIE Bazaar
20: ECE202 Ind + Grp
20: ECM202 Ind
22: Kickboxing[10]
23: 1st Day(Pract II)
26: Outing(Seraph)
29: Kickboxing[11]
Movies Caught:
1. Peter Pan
2. Big Fish
January 2004
1: New Year
4: Kickboxing[4]
6: Appointment(Hair)
7: Outing(Seraph)
11: Appointment(Hair)
11: Kickboxing[5]
12: NIE Sem 4 Starts
12: Outing(Seraph)
13: Outing(Seraph)
14: NIE Bazaar
15: NIE Bazaar
16: NIE Bazaar
16: Outing(Seraph)
18: Kickboxing[6]
21: CNY Eve
21: Outing(Seraph)
22: Chinese New Year
23: Chinese New Year
25: Kickboxing[7]
28: NIE Pract II Briefing
28: Outing(Seraph)
Movies Caught:
1. The Last Samurai
New Year Resolutions:
- Continue to think positive
- Have at least an overseas trip
- Have more relaxations than work
- Eat healthy and exercise regularly
- Be more successful in my life and work
- Be more joyful and loving at heart than 2003
- Find my Mr Right and be more down-to-earth
- A new home, A new working environment, A new me! A fresh start!
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