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| Yawnz... |
| 03.29.04 (5:52 am) [edit] |
Yawnz... So tiring... What have I done to make myself so tired???
Hey... today Joey bully me!!! Not fair. This big guy is older than me by 10 days and he kept teasing me... This single and unattached young lad is getting on my nerves. Today, while I was in the photocopying room doing my laminating, he popped in. Then he started hitting my head with his notes. Just at the same time, another techical guy appeared. I told him that Joey is a bad guy to bully a gal. The technical guy scolded him that how can a gentleman like him bully a gal? Heh, then you know what this cheeky boy replied? He said that he was bullying his wife, so it's fine. HUH! What the....?!? I scolded him up-side-down just now!!! NO jokes on that... sensitive you know... especially when I am attached. Sounds like flirting around, you know... and I do not like that!!! Nah, I have Seraph here in my heart and no guy can fit in. Joey is just being naughty and bubbly. I trust that he does not have any cheeky or bad thoughts. He is just happy to have found someone of his age and graduate from the same field (IT). That's why we could clinque rather well. There is nothing between the two of us... Serious... anyway, I'll be leaving MGS really soon in 3 weeks time. He'll be out of my sight. Haha... no more teasing from him. But was indeed a great chat whenever we discuss about IT matters. He intended to job hop to HP after his bond. HP is a nice place to work in. Many of my friends are in there now... working as Technical Support.
Well... Just gotta watch my steps and words... must not behave as an unfaithful gal to my dear Seraph. Seraph had been so busy recently... Rather miss him dearly. I could not sms too often, I do not want to stress him up or disturb him. Dear Lord, please take care of him. Please bless him well. Please let him feel that I am missing and thinking of him here. Please tell him that I want him to do his work well and to rest well too. LOving him always and nothing's gonna change it. Amen....
"You came from Heaven to Earth,
To show the way
From the Earth to the cross,
My debts to pay
From the cross to the grave,
From the grave to the sky,
Lord i lift Your name on high"
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| So tired... |
| 03.27.04 (3:50 am) [edit] |
I am so tired... Had been drained from over-working. I could not focus on my work today. I was basically rotting away... Hahaha...
Yes, I deserve a good rest. I put in so much effort and.... (what was past had been history). Woke up at 7.30am, took my breakfast and was unpacking my books to prepare for my next week's Lesson Planning. Then, went to bed again at 11am and woke up at 1.30pm. I skipped my lunch and surfed the Internet.
Then I started preparing my teaching aids even before I typed out my Lesson Plans. Hahaha.... Now, I tell myself that I have to start working on it. Else, I would not be able to complete all.
Seraph had been very busy too. God, please take care of him. I am unable to attend. I pray that he has enough rest each night and his heart is always joyful.
Yesterday I bought clothes again. This is the second time in this month that I spent on clothes. I bought two sphagetti dresses and a sphagetti-top. My ex-student was with me when I tried on the dresses. Hee... she comment that it is beautiful. Heez... next time wear it for Seraph to see. Then, I spent money again on perfume. I finished my 1st bottle of 80ml Lancome Miracle a few weeks back. I am rather not used to it when I did not wear perfume now. Finally, got it again! I also got a new pair of sun-glasses. Yah, spoilt myself yeaterday. I deserve it! Don't you think so? I should pamper myself for my hardwork for the past few weeks. Hee...... I just want to do somethings to make myself happier. Had a gloomy week. Nevertheless, less than 3 weeks to go now... I will not need to do so many DETAILED Lesson Plans...
God bless all of you out there reading my blog! Be joyful and please take care!
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| What a day!!! |
| 03.24.04 (5:40 am) [edit] |
Whoosh.... what a day!!!
Had a tough going day. I had my 2nd CT Observation(Science) today. I will only get my SPT form tomorrow morning. Every Wednesday is my most tiring day of the week. I had 6 periods of teaching... Now, legs aching as I was running from one place to another and standing for the whole day. What a tiring day! Nevertheless, I had a fruitful day! Manage to complete all that I am suppose to. ON top of that, I received my 1st CT Observation(Maths) APT form. I did well and was very motivated to work towards it. I will try all my best to maintain this performance. Wow! That really kept me going man!!! Must thank God... I lay everything into my LORD's hands. I honor Him! Thank God for my confidence in class, my wisdom to apart the Mathematical knowledge to my girls. Thanks God for minimising the amount of FEAR in me and maximising my motivation and confidence. I am even more inspired now to work even more harder to maintain and excel at the end of my 7 weeks stay in MGS.
Praise the LORD!!!
Tomorrow will be my NIE Supervisor 1st Observation. Again, I will pray and leave everything to God. He who promise will provide. He knows how much I could give and when I should not. I trust and stand strong in my Faith for my LORD! All will be fine as long as I have Jesus Christ with me in my heart. Amen!!!
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| Another Quiet Time with the Lord... |
| 03.21.04 (5:33 am) [edit] |
I had a rough and tough week. Thanks to God for His comforting Word.
This world is full of disbelief. I pray that God's love and Spirit will penetrate the thick cloud of darkness that the evil one has wrapped the world with the light of His love, the arrows of His Truth and the goodness of His endless and unconditional love. Amen. :wink:
Dear brothers and sisters-in-Christ, I will pray that every one of us will remain strong in our walk with the Lord and that more souls will be won for eternal salvation in the Lord. Amen. :wink:
I'm preparing myself for the three greatest event of this week. :wink: In spite of that, I have to keep myself walking closely with the Lord. I have to do what I have to do! God is with me all the time. There is nothing I should fear. Amen. :wink:
[b]Matt 5:33[/b] "Again you have heard that it was said to those of old, 'You shall not swear falsely, but shall perform your oaths to the Lord.'
[b]5:34[/b] "But I say to you, do not swear at all: neither by heaven, for it is God's throne;
[b]5:35[/b] "nor by the earth, for it is His footstool; nor by Jerusalem, for it is the city of the great King.
[b]5:36[/b] "Nor shall you swear by your head, because you cannot make one hair white or black.
[b]5:37[/b] "But let your 'Yes' be 'Yes', and your 'No" be 'No'. For whatever is more than these is from the evil one.
God revealed many instances whereby I have been dishonest with myself and I need to confess my sins and sincerely repent of them. "Lying breaks trust and hurts relationships". I am not telling myself that I could go to class with confidence and I will make a good lesson. Instead, I go into class with this fear in me. I fear this and I fear that. Many a times I tell myself I do not need to fear as my LORD is with me. Yet, I am dishonest with myself and I forego God's Words. I seek your forgiveness God. You have been there with me and I actually left your Words out. I really repent and will follow your Words. I will pray before I enter my class, I will tell myself that I will have a terrific time with my students and I will definitely created a wonderful lesson for my students in MGS to take home. And I will do all these in God's grace and His wisdom. Amen. :wink:
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Friends out there....
God bless everyone of you.
God loves you very much.
Each one in pain, in tears, in anguish.
He appears in your hiding place because He will be the one who gives you hope.
He promises to honor those who honors Him.
He promises to give us only as much as He knows we can bear.
He knows us because He has created each one of us.
He knows the full potential we can achieve and He wants to help us to achieve that.
He promises only the best to those who love Him.
There are many of us who can testify to His goodness that we have tasted.
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To end this evening's Quiet Time I pray to LORD again. I need help Lord! To live my life the way You want me to.
Help me Lord. Search my heart and make it pure. Help me be Your shining light. May I pray once again that you keep Seraph in Your arms and bless him with the energy and wisdom each day. Life have been tough on Seraph, especially after he got into SIM. Moreover, he had to keep me company. God, bless him well for I know you truly love each and everyone of us. I lay Seraph into Your hands once more. Thank God for bringing both of us back together again. In the name of our dear Father, Amen. :wink:
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| Silly Seraph BUT Sweet Seraph... |
| 03.21.04 (2:09 am) [edit] |
I had a great and lovely afternoon!!!
I was out with my dear Seraph this afternoon. I was late for about 40 minutes. :wink: He waited patiently in the Library. I did not know he meant to celebrate my Birthday. I only knew it when he wrote in his sms that the Birthday girl decides for the day. I remembered he wanted to watch "The Haunted Mansion". So since he had not caught that movie, we went for it.
After the movie, hand-in-hand, we went to walk around the shopping area. He had to leave at 3pm. Although it was just a 2hrs 30min meet up, it is good enough. Really! I go for quality time and not in quantity.
We had a sweet hug before he left. When I was on the LRT home, I opened the card... He really is a man of few words. Gee... a simple sweet card sent with love and warmth. I like it! I really do! I cried when I read the card. You might be asking, since there's little words written on the card, what's there to cry about. Gee, it a feeling. A feeling to cry when I read his card. The first card, the first gift. I thought he forgot about it but he did not. I ought to be shot dead! (Erm... Someone get me a coffin please....)
I opened the gift once I reached home. Oh my God!!! I just washed my face with my tears when I opened the card. Now, looking at the gift, I am truly touched. He made me 91 paper cranes. He added up my name "KATHERINE" (i.e. E-5, A-1, ...etc) and I have 91 paper cranes from him, made by him.... It all came in a plain white box... with a surprise hidden in the box. He got me a cross. It was at the bottom of the box. What a sweet gift... a box of paper cranes with the sacred Christian cross buried below. I am going to get a bottle to contain my paper cranes... And leave it on my desk. I called him... I called to say a "thanks" to him again. I do not know if he heard my trembling voice over the phone... I could not hold back my tears... He is already busy with his work and studies and he could took just a few minutes each day to make some paper cranes for me. I need to be shot!!! Silly Seraph... A message of love being sent through... from the paper cranes to my heart.
Isn't it sweet... I made him paper stars... he made me paper cranes... I just want to be immersed in this love and sweetness for the whole day and the next few days...
Dear, thanks for all your effort. I will carve your sweetness and thoughfulness in my heart. I really love your gift. Thanks. A gift of love! Just give me time... Time to adapt and get used to our belated celebrations... Heez... Sorry for my silly thoughts that you may have forgottened about this day. Hugs... Loving you, always...
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| Realisation.... My Very Own Feeling... |
| 03.20.04 (1:56 am) [edit] |
Quoted from Kei's comment on 19th Mar 2004:
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Salutations Kat... I'm just wondering if you are sure of your own feeling. On one hand you have this realisation that Seraph is the one, on the other hand you keep harping about your Kel. You are torn by dear... who do you really like? You cant live in the present and think love the past.
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First of all, I have to thanks Kei for the comment. Thanks for your concern. I am very sure of my feelings. Even if I am not, God does. So what's your fuss about? Sorrie, I am not harping about Kel. You know what is the meaning of past? You know what is the meaning of memories? Is having memories wrong? Is thinking back to those memories wrong or illegal? And who says that? Then whatever for we have memories... I have lots of memories... good old days with my SAPS students, good old Poly days, good old secondary school days, good old days when I am just a playful and naive young gal... If I think back to those, I am harping over it and forgot all about my present??? No... memories are for you to think back... reflect upon. Everyone out there have memories. Good and bad memories... I beg your pardon, please do not tell me you have no memories? How sad if you don't have one....
Kel and I were over in our relationship. It's a broken relationship because of my parents' objections. Not with either party. SO definitely, there is something amiss there. BUT... that's the past..... so many years already. Come on... be honest with our feelings! I miss Kel though, missed how he treated me with his sweetness and his gave me his dedicated love. It has nothing to do with my present Seraph. No one is perfect and no man can be alike. Since I trust that God lead both me and Seraph together, I have to accept that. In fact, memories of kel came into my mind again when I packed my room and found those stuff from him. Else, I would not even bring him up again.
I remembered in our last class gathering, both Kel and I confessed that... we really loved one another AT THAT TIME He was my first boyfriend whom I loved. And he confessed that even though he is attached for 4 years, I am still the only woman who has his love. He never truly put in his heart for another woman again. He could not bring himself to love another woman as deeply as he did for me. But I also told him honestly, I treasure those sweet memories. But unlike him, I love my Seraph with my entire heart now. Seraph filled my heart.... and not kel. I treat and love Serpah for he is seraph and not because he is a substitution. Kel is just a memory to me now. I care for Seraph, I am concern about Seraph, I work for Seraph, I think of Seraph, I pray for Seraph... my entire life is surrounded by Seraph. I love Seraph. If Seraph will ever doubt my love, then I am good enough to be dead... Giving my entire heart to someone dear and gets back his doubts and suspicions, then it's so disappointing to be good enough to be dead (Heart brokened).
So, to conclude I am very sure who I love. I will still accumulate and have memories. A person without memories is so pathetic. Wonder how that person live his/her days on earth? Like as if nothing took place?? I live in the present, I have hopes for the present and my future. My past and all my memories are my reflections to look back upon.
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| OKie... Learnt.... |
| 03.19.04 (2:47 am) [edit] |
THanks my dear BellBell... and coolman for your comments.
Okie... I have learnt my lesson. Since my dear does not at all care about such occasions, I shall leave him alone for that and no more fuss over this. Maybe I'll get used to that too...
I am in a happier mood... Someone sent a bouquet of my favourite flowers to my place. Smell nice... Did not leave his/her name behind. Wondered who this mysterious person is. It is wonderful... It's in my room now. Beautiful!
Mood is back and all packed and ready to go for another round of battle--My Lesson Planning.... Heee...
Good! Splendid! Well-motivated with momentum again and that's how Katherine should be, yeah! ;)
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| He Remembered.... |
| 03.18.04 (5:48 pm) [edit] |
Thank God. Seraph remembered. He remembered...
He sms me 15 minutes before midnight. And again at midnight. Just to wish me a Happy Birthday! I was asleep... but was not a good sleep. Tossed and turned many times... Did not sleep well. The least he did is he remembered. Should I still be happy?
Honestly, when I read the sms this morning at 6am, my heart felt nothing. I searched my heart, it has no expression on it. Told you before, my immunity is very high. When I am disappointed and very disappointed, that'll good enough to set me in the immunity mode. Today, is the first time ever in my whole life, with a boyfriend but have to spend it alone. I should be happy and over joyed today, but I am not. KNow something, my Girlfriends had their BF with them for the occasions, especially their Birthday but mine.... A gal, who treasures occasions, was left alone throughout. SIghs... Was it too harsh on him to spend these days with me? Am I being unreasonable? Only 4 days in year... really that hard??? I asked and I seek friends... they guided and asked me to think again... if he has the heart, will he make up for it whenever we could not meet? How did he react when he knew he could not meet? Friends could not understand why I my still siding him and protecting him from all the comments they lay on him. Well... he did try to meet up... He did try to make an effort... But... I do not need to say so much here, he knows what he is doing and how much he had put into ths relationship.
I love him still although heart still hurts. I will continue to give till my heart have no more energy to beat for him. I am also a normal gal. I can be understanding and caring and loving to one. Love is a two-way traffic. I cannot be the one working hard on it and the other party seems to be doing nothing. I can be independent and I would like to have a space of my own too. But does not mean I have to be left unattended and only attend to me when you know I have problems. That's not the way to maintain the relationship. It will make no difference as a friend. As friends will be there to listen and advice us when we have problems too. We are more than a friend.
If I am giving him too much stress, I am being unreasonable, I am not being understanding, I am not loving, I am asking too much, I am not supporting him... then I really have to do something.
Anyone out there reading my blog, can you please comment on my attitude? Am I really bad? Should I forget about this incident just like the Xmas, Valentine's day and continue on as if nothing has taken place? Am I making a big fuss out of a molehill?
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| Sweet words.... |
| 03.18.04 (6:10 am) [edit] |
Read this from Chewy's blog...
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You have to love 'in spite of' and not 'because of'. loving is about giving in spite of whatever happens.
love is kind, it is not envious or selfish. love should come from the heart. give till it hurts n even until the point of hurting urself, give some more.
love must go both ways. It seeks to compromise 'in spite of' whatever happens. the moment this disappears, love ceases to exist...
How beautiful!
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Yes... although I felt hurt that Seraph had forgottened all about my Birthday, I'll still give him my love... Even if it hurts... UNtil the moment the hurts shattered my ENTIRE heart, else I'll still continue to give him my love no matter how hurt I felt or how disappointed I am.
That's all I have to say for tonight. Another 2 hours and that's it... I really prayed hard that I am truly wrong about Seraph on forgetting my Birthday.
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| Expected.... |
| 03.18.04 (4:00 am) [edit] |
What's expected is expected...
I went back to MGS and met Joey in the staff room. He said to me, "1 more day." He asked if I'll be back tomorrow. Well.... I got a bad news too. One of my friends' CT lost her child. She is expecting to give birth to a baby boy next month but unfortunately... It's so sad when I heard the news this morning. The VP approached me to get my friend's mobile number so that she could inform her about the changes. When I called my friend to let her know, we both prayed and cried on the phone. Oh dear! I felt so sad for my friend's CT. I feel for her lost. She is a close friend to my boss... She had a very kind heart and nice personality. I spoke to her a few times and she's truly a nice person. Please pray for her and her unborn child... Life is so unpredictable... She had been very stressed up and busy with her work...
Anyway... had been a silent day yesterday and today. No sms, No news, No contacts from Seraph... Hope he is doing well... I have lost hope for tomorrow, my birthday. Dreams, Wishes, Hopes, Happiness.... all shattered... We had missed the chance to spend Xmas together, so is Valentine's Day... now, guess he forgot all about my birthday.... Friends consoled that he might be planning a surprise for me. Let's see then... but no news from him about tomorrow... so I doubt any good surprise. We only have four occasions to spend in a year -- Valentine's day, my birthday, his birthday and Christmas. Only these few significant ones... We lost all...
So, so, so, so disappointed... heart shattered...
God... You there? You could hear me right?
Tell me now, what I should do?
Tell me how I should react?
My body is aching from over-working, felt like going to be down for days.
And my heart is tearing and breaking up.
Please, guide my heart once again God... Deliver me from the all the tests and shower me with your gracefulness once again. Father, I kneel before you to ask for a rest for my body. I am physically, mentally and emotionally very tired. I want a rest. A good rest. I love Seraph still but I really have no idea how I should handle all the disappointments. My heart is tired too. I am starting to lose faith in myself. God.... while you guide me, would you please keep Seraph closely in your arms? Please take care of him, in everything related to him. He must have a tough time managing both his work and studies. In Jesus' name, Amen!
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| HaPpY DaY... FaSt n EfFiCiEnT... |
| 03.17.04 (6:42 am) [edit] |
Wow!!! Applaud for Kath!!! I had a super tiring day today and for the past two days. Burnt the whole two days with my work. I did not have a good time to rest. Now that it was done, I had a feeling of achievement and a great sense of satisfaction. Just like what Dr Ng complimented... When I set my heart and mind on something, I'll do it to the best that I can achieve. Wow!!!
I had a very busy schedule and managed to complete what I needed to. Tomorrow, I'll be back to school again to work. I need to prepare my work and print out the necessary stuff to be filed. It would not take long.
Heh... will definite bump into Joey again... Argh... he'll count down my Birthday again... Hee...
Anyway, I really do not know what kind of mood I should set my heart to be. When someone you love could not spend this day with you... or could be worst, what if he really forget all about my birthday? This is not the first time... we just could not and do not have the chance to spend occasions together. Must I tell myself to understand him and forgive him if he really forget all about my birthday? I will be really sad and disappointed with him if he really forgets... Gals are still gals after all. Birthdays and celebrations are very important to them(to the majority), especial their birthdays.... I have set my ICQ to send an alert to members on my list (I always have this alert facility turned on).... if he launched his ICQ in these few days, he should be able to get the notice. My heart and my mind seems to communicate well... both my heart and my mind somehow had the answer for this Friday... Well.... May I not have this Friday? Could I just go concass and wake up the following day, 20th march? Nah... just do not want to remind myself of how sad this day will be....
Heez.... I shall not let this matter affect me for the rest of tonight and tomorrow. Let's see about that again tomorrow night.... Nah... I knew the answer before it came.... hee..... I really pray I am wrong utterly wrong this time! Hey, suddenly thought of a song.... Gonna dig my CD rack and play it...
I will be back tomorrow evening. WIth good news or bad? Erm.... let's see if I am right again.... Which I am very sure of.... Sighs... Why can't I just get it wrong for the first time????
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| Counting down... |
| 03.16.04 (2:41 am) [edit] |
Joey, my school's TA, is counting down my birthday for me. Sighs.... what's the point of celebrating it? Heh... I am making myself work more so that I won't think about this day... I really forgot about the dates when I kept myself busy.
Am I treating my dear Seraph too nice? Am I really pampering him too much? My analogy is that if I see my man happy, I will be very happy too. Yesterday, I went to MGS to work and left at 4.45pm. One of my female colleague and I went to have our lunch taken at 4.45pm at Clementi Macdonald's. She asked about my relationship with Seraph. She claimed that I am too understanding and too nice to my man. She added that if she's in my position, she'll quarrel with him long ago... She was angry how could my man treat me in this manner... she said that superficially he look sweet and caring... but inside, he is not at all loving and could not bother about me. Well... I have learnt my lessons that I should not listen to what people say.... there are just too many comments everywhere around us. Just leave it to my heart to feel and and God to work us out. I have faith in Seraph and I believe he is not the kind of man they claim he is. She was not the first person to encourage me choose other better guys out there as I have the calibre to do so. Things are not that bad at the moment. We are still sweet although we are both busy with our work. Lesser time and infact really very little time to meet. We still have one another in our hearts. Well... I am not being ignorant or being blinded by love. What do you expect me to do? Go and pick a fight over such trival matters? Also, such matters come from the heart. If he has no heart to do it, even if I point a gun at him, he would not be happy to do it. Heh... both of us are matured adults and we have better things to do then to quarrel over such issues. Yes, I must admit sometimes I Really feel disappointed with him that he did not know what I hope he would do. But very soon, this disappoinment seems to immune me and I am used to it... Adaptability is high, and honestly I must agree to that! Heh... :) So don't leave me unattended for long, else, I'll just get used to it and get immune to it. Hopefully this would not immune my feelings for him too... :(
Well... I still trust in him that if he is given more time, he'll be able to do a good job out of it. He is REALLY sweet at times and he does cares for me. So, I do not want to set my heart and mind to think too much or to start judging him. This will be hurting to our hearts and I do not want to do that. All I need is to keep praying. He may not be like how my other girlfiends' boyfriends treated them. Envious, I would be. But again, as I said before... Never to compare as it hurts both hearts. Never to judge as it hurts too. Who would not want to be treated nicely and sweetly???
Birthday means nothing to me now, Christmas had been lonely, Valentine's day have been quiet too... Birthday will not be anything much worst compared to those. Heh... Spent this day with myself.... and my work.... and with God.
I will be having a short celebration this weekend with my brothers and sisters in Christ. Next weekend, having a gathering with my secondary school friends. This time I am not asking Seraph along. Being turned down once is good enough not to ask again... Anyway... Kelvin will be there too...
I had a long yet fruitful day. Heh... work like mad if not fruitful then that's bad... Heeee... Pray that Seraph have a good day in school later too....
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| Life once again.... |
| 03.11.04 (5:41 am) [edit] |
Once again... My mathematics lesson had been a fruitful and interesting one. I am so proud of my maths lesson today. My girls enjoyed so much and just looked at their excited and over-whelming responses, so touched that my effort was not gone into the drain! Looks like both my Science and Mathematics lesson are on the path now. What I need is confidence in my English lessons. EM1 students. I am still having the fear in me to conduct my lessons for them. Gosh... have to over-come it soon as my Supervisor will coming very soon to observe my English on 25th.
Today, two friends asked me at different time of the day that how could both Seraph and me cope? We were so busy and how could be still keep in contact and go out. The fact is, we do not have the luxury to go dating. We both understand each other's situation and come to a concensus that our work should be in the first priority now. Especially to a man, their work is very important to them. All I pray for is that God will continue to keep him in His arms and embrace him with love and joy for his heart. I hope that our over-whelming workload will not affect our relationship. Our work may have taken away our time and chances to meet up. But I pray that in our hearts, we still care and love for one another no matter how physically far apart we can be now.
God is the Almighty and He will not put us into agony. He has His way to strengthen both Seraph's and my heart. I just have to support my man in whatever he does and stand by him no matter what happens.... Isn't that what is written in the Bible? :)
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| Missing Seraph... |
| 03.09.04 (5:49 am) [edit] |
& nbsp; Hmm.... Have not gone out with Seraph for quite some time. He is busy so am I. We hardly had anytime to meet up. He had to manage both his work and his studies. That's really not easy, you know. Must have been very tough on him. Sobs... :( heartache to see him work so hard. REally pray that he has enough of rest. You know, my heart aches to know and see him not having enough rest.
& nbsp;Next week will be our vacation. Hopefully, we could meet up. Anyway, I will support him in whatever he does. I will not stress him up on meeting me as I know in my heart that he is really busy with his work and studies. :) I will be there for him when he needs me, just like the way he gives me his attention when I needed him. :) I treasure all our time together as time is really precious to us. We could not be like other couples, meet up so often. But what I know my heart will do is to keep thinking of my dearest Seraph and missing him in every moment. I always pray for him. Pray that God will keep him insight and embrace each and every day with love and joy for his heart.
& nbsp;Seraph, I really have no idea if you would ever read my blogs, heee..... cos you never mention anything. Nevertheless, I still want you to know that I want you to study well and please do not over-worked and over-tired yourself. Work is important but health is even more important. No matter what you do, I'll be there for you. So, please do well in your work and concentrate in your studies with no worries. Thanks for being so sweet and being there for me when I needed you. Loving you, Always.... :oops:
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| 03.08.04 (4:53 am) [edit] |
Heh.... My Science lesson went relatively well... students had lots of fun in the Science Lab session. I had a satisfactory feeling when I stepped out of class. That's a great achievement for the day.
Hmmm.... yet to be the next day... I have a sudden craving to have Nasi Lemak... maybe that'll be my breakfast for tomorrow.
Tomorrow, I'll finish up my manipulative aids for this week's lesson. Then, I'll prepare for the on-coming week... Hee...
[b][u]Tuesday[/u][/b]
- start my overview for lesson plans(Week 5).
- complete 2 detailed Science Lesson Plans.
[b][u]Wednesday[/u][/b]
- complete 5 detailed Mathematics Lesson Plans.
[b][u]Thursday[/u][/b]
- complete 3 detailed English Lesson Plans.
[b][u]Friday[/u][/b]
- Submit my detailed Lesson Plans.
Oh yes, I befriend an old campus mate today. He was from the same campus as I am. He is now a IT technician under the NCS. We are in the same field, same age, same month of birthday and same horoscope. I am so happy to have met someone I know in the place I am working. Tomorrow's his Birthday. He's older than me by 10 days! Glad to know this pal.
Well... Holidays coming along soon... I should have a good mood and not in a bad mood.
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| 03.06.04 (5:13 am) [edit] |
Pray for my second Practicum. That I will be able to work through day by day with confidence. Moment by moment. Second by second. Pray that I will not get too caught up in the hustle and bustle of everything. May my Head/Boss be more considerate and more organised in her work.
Father, I come before You and seek Your forgiveness. I am lacking the confidence in myself again. I have great anger in me for the past two weeks. I have been very angry with the over-whelming stress my Boss had laid on me. Lord please forgive me. Fill me up with Your humility and meekness. Let me not be so affected by what my Boss did to me. Let my heart be filled with forgiveness for her and accept her once again with love. Please forgive me, I'm sorry. Please forgive me Lord. Wash me anew with reminders of Your love and mercy that makes me this small person whom You have chosen to love, to create. Thank You Lord. Thank You for never giving up on me, and for always trusting me and loving me. Thank You Lord. I pray that You will continue to remind me of my place. I am nothing without You. I know with you in my heart, there is nothing I should fear. I am really nothing without You. Thank You Lord. In Jesus' name. Amen.
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| Never sleep.... |
| 03.05.04 (6:33 pm) [edit] |
Wah hah!!! I did not sleep for the last two days... I skipped some meals too... Wah... Now, felt so light... Hungry and head spinning... seeing two visions now... hahaha... I was busy with my work and had to rush out many stuff... so, sleep had to be sacrifaced.
I can sacriface anything but will never sacriface my dear Seraph! Hee.... he is sweet. He listen patiently at my grumbles over about my colleague. He even gave me some good ideas in my work, which I could implement into my teaching. That really helped to solve some of my biggest headache.
Well... I since my fourth week of Practicum is the march vacation, I will start on my Week 5 work next monday onwards. Heh! My boss thought I could not produce my work out with only one day of notice... Heh, I impressed her yesterday when I produced a stack of my report to her. Hah... I even asked my boss how was my work... she was shocked and dumbfounded... She could not believe that I could produce those out over a night! Heh, with God around me, no fear!!! Amen! "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going." Don't she dare to play and mess things up with me... I was sitting at the back of her class observing her teaching methods. I did not mention anything to her about my observation on her. I did not do my best last week. I was testing waters... Now... she provoked and stepped on my tails..... I am going to trigger the real self out from next week onwards. Heh... she'll see what I am... But, I must rest well and get back to my normal self first... I was so tired that I messed up my concepts on some basic science facts. Know what, I was looking for a pair of my scissors... I searched all over when the the pair of scissors was lying so innocently right infront of my eyes... I was just too tired... Air can be compressed and I let it slipped out of my mind.... I need to be shot!
So to make my plans be successful, I have to prepare myself for the oncoming challenges she'll set for me.
I am missing my dear Seraph... I was working like a metal robot... had not rested and had not given a thought of him. I felt like I had neglected him. Now, that I had my work done, kindda miss him...
I am dozing off... I am going to take my rest.... Gonna sleep and sleep and sleep.... ZzzzZZZzzzzZZZZzzzzz.....
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For the Month of December
To Do List:
- Catch at least 2 movies
- Gym sessions once every week
- Bible sharing every week
- Every Tuesday nite out
Schedule:
December 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Blade Trinity
2. National Treasure
November 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Polar Express
2. The Incredibles
October 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Wimbledon
Schedule:
September 2004
1: Teacher's Day
4: 1-wk Vacation Starts
5: Pilates[11]
5: Pilates[11]
6: Orchard(Sushi Tei)
8: Raffles Place(Sakae Sushi)
10: Hair Spa
11: Dira’s Wedding
12: 1-wk Vacation Ends
12: Kick-boxing[1]
17: West Mall(Sakae Sushi)
19: Kick-boxing[2]
26: Pilates[1]
26: Kick-boxing[3]
Movies Caught:
1.Garfield
2.The Terminal
Schedule:
August 2004
1: Pilates[6]
3: Play at DBS Art Ctr-Woman in Black
4: NIE(Collect gown)
6: Gym & Movie
8: Pilates[7]
9: National Day
10: Gym & Outing
13: NIE Graduation(SIS)
15: Pilates[8]
17: Yes! You stand a chance Seraph(2003)
17: Holland Village(Michelangelo's)
21: Submit Application(SIM)
22: Pilates[9]
23: Seraph's DOB
24: Orchard(DOME)
28: Teacher's Day Dinner(Suntec)
29: Pilates[10]
Movies Caught:
1.House of Daggers
2.The Village
3.The NoteBook
July 2004
I was Missing In Action
Recuperating from the broken Relationship ...
Movies Caught:
1. King Arthur
June 2004
I was Missing In Action
28: 1st day in School
Movies Caught:
1. Home on the Range
2. Shrek 2
3. Harry Potter & The Prisoner of Azkaban
4. Chronicles of the Riddick
May 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Van Helsing
April 2004
2: CT EL Obs(3)
4: Kickboxing[4]
5: CT Maths Obs(4)
6: CT EL Obs(5)
9: Good Friday
10: Brother's Birthday!
9: Good Friday
11: Kickboxing[5]
14: Sup Meets CTs
16: Last Day of Pract II
18: Kickboxing[6]
24: EED200 Report
25: Kickboxing[7]
Movies Caught:
1. 50 First Dates
2. Koma
March 2004
1: Gym Session
7: Kickboxing[12]
8: Mum's Birthday!
8: Gym Session
13: 1-wk Vacation Starts
14: Kickboxing[1]
19: My Birthday!
21: Kickboxing[2]
21: Outing(Seraph)
21: 1-wk Vacation Ends
23: CT Maths Obs(1)
24: CT Sci Obs(2)
26: NIE Sup Obs(1)
28: Kickboxing[3]
30: NIE Sup Obs(2)
Movies Caught:
1. The Haunted Mansion
February 2004
1: Hari Raya Haji
2: Outing(Seraph)
3: EED200 Grp Report
4: Outing(Seraph)
6: NIE Pract II Posting
8: Kickboxing[8]
9: HDB(Get keys)
13: Visit new house
13: Pals Gathering
14: Valentine's Day
15: Kickboxing[9]
16: NIE Bazaar
17: NIE Bazaar
17: ECM202 Quiz
18: NIE Bazaar
20: ECE202 Ind + Grp
20: ECM202 Ind
22: Kickboxing[10]
23: 1st Day(Pract II)
26: Outing(Seraph)
29: Kickboxing[11]
Movies Caught:
1. Peter Pan
2. Big Fish
January 2004
1: New Year
4: Kickboxing[4]
6: Appointment(Hair)
7: Outing(Seraph)
11: Appointment(Hair)
11: Kickboxing[5]
12: NIE Sem 4 Starts
12: Outing(Seraph)
13: Outing(Seraph)
14: NIE Bazaar
15: NIE Bazaar
16: NIE Bazaar
16: Outing(Seraph)
18: Kickboxing[6]
21: CNY Eve
21: Outing(Seraph)
22: Chinese New Year
23: Chinese New Year
25: Kickboxing[7]
28: NIE Pract II Briefing
28: Outing(Seraph)
Movies Caught:
1. The Last Samurai
New Year Resolutions:
- Continue to think positive
- Have at least an overseas trip
- Have more relaxations than work
- Eat healthy and exercise regularly
- Be more successful in my life and work
- Be more joyful and loving at heart than 2003
- Find my Mr Right and be more down-to-earth
- A new home, A new working environment, A new me! A fresh start!
For the Month of August
To Do List:
- Catch at least 2 movies
- Gym sessions once every week
- Bible sharing every week
- Every Tuesday nite out
Schedule:
August 2004
1: Pilates[6]
3: Play at DBS Art Ctr "Woman in Black"
4: NIE(Collect gown)
6: Gym + Movie
8: Pilates[7]
9: National Day
10: Gym + Outing
13: NIE Graduation(SIS)
15: Pilates[8]
17: "Yes! You stand a chance, Seraph"-2003
17: Holland Village(Michelangelo's)
21: Submit Application(SIM)
22: Pilates[9]
23: Seraph's DOB
24: Orchard(DOME)
28: Teacher's Day Dinner(Suntec)
29: Pilates[10]
Movies Caught:
1.House of Daggers
2.The Village
3.NoteBook
July 2004
I was Missing In Action
Recuperating from the broken Relationship ...
Movies Caught:
1. King Arthur
June 2004
I was Missing In Action
28: 1st day in School
Movies Caught:
1. Home on the Range
2. Shrek 2
3. Harry Potter & The Prisoner of Azkaban
4. Chronicles of the Riddick
May 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Van Helsing
April 2004
2: CT EL Obs(3)
4: Kickboxing[4]
5: CT Maths Obs(4)
6: CT EL Obs(5)
9: Good Friday
10: Brother's Birthday!
9: Good Friday
11: Kickboxing[5]
14: Sup Meets CTs
16: Last Day of Pract II
18: Kickboxing[6]
24: EED200 Report
25: Kickboxing[7]
Movies Caught:
1. 50 First Dates
2. Koma
March 2004
1: Gym Session
7: Kickboxing[12]
8: Mum's Birthday!
8: Gym Session
13: 1-wk Vacation Starts
14: Kickboxing[1]
19: My Birthday!
21: Kickboxing[2]
21: Outing(Seraph)
21: 1-wk Vacation Ends
23: CT Maths Obs(1)
24: CT Sci Obs(2)
26: NIE Sup Obs(1)
28: Kickboxing[3]
30: NIE Sup Obs(2)
Movies Caught:
1. The Haunted Mansion
February 2004
1: Hari Raya Haji
2: Outing(Seraph)
3: EED200 Grp Report
4: Outing(Seraph)
6: NIE Pract II Posting
8: Kickboxing[8]
9: HDB(Get keys)
13: Visit new house
13: Pals Gathering
14: Valentine's Day
15: Kickboxing[9]
16: NIE Bazaar
17: NIE Bazaar
17: ECM202 Quiz
18: NIE Bazaar
20: ECE202 Ind + Grp
20: ECM202 Ind
22: Kickboxing[10]
23: 1st Day(Pract II)
26: Outing(Seraph)
29: Kickboxing[11]
Movies Caught:
1. Peter Pan
2. Big Fish
January 2004
1: New Year
4: Kickboxing[4]
6: Appointment(Hair)
7: Outing(Seraph)
11: Appointment(Hair)
11: Kickboxing[5]
12: NIE Sem 4 Starts
12: Outing(Seraph)
13: Outing(Seraph)
14: NIE Bazaar
15: NIE Bazaar
16: NIE Bazaar
16: Outing(Seraph)
18: Kickboxing[6]
21: CNY Eve
21: Outing(Seraph)
22: Chinese New Year
23: Chinese New Year
25: Kickboxing[7]
28: NIE Pract II Briefing
28: Outing(Seraph)
Movies Caught:
1. The Last Samurai
New Year Resolutions:
- Continue to think positive
- Have at least an overseas trip
- Have more relaxations than work
- Eat healthy and exercise regularly
- Be more successful in my life and work
- Be more joyful and loving at heart than 2003
- Find my Mr Right and be more down-to-earth
- A new home, A new working environment, A new me! A fresh start!
For the Month of August
To Do List:
- Catch at least 2 movies
- Gym sessions once every week
- Bible sharing every week
- Every Tuesday nite out
Schedule:
August 2004
1: Pilates[6]
3: Play at DBS Art Ctr "Woman in Black"
4: NIE(Collect gown)
6: Gym & Movie
8: Pilates[7]
9: National Day
10: Gym & Outing
13: NIE Graduation(SIS)
15: Pilates[8]
17: "Yes! You stand a chance, Seraph"-2003
17: Holland Village(Michelangelo's)
21: Submit Application(SIM)
22: Pilates[9]
23: Seraph's DOB
24: Orchard(DOME)
28: Teacher's Day Dinner(Suntec)
29: Pilates[10]
Movies Caught:
1.House of Daggers
2.The Village
3.NoteBook
July 2004
I was Missing In Action
Recuperating from the broken Relationship ...
Movies Caught:
1. King Arthur
June 2004
I was Missing In Action
28: 1st day in School
Movies Caught:
1. Home on the Range
2. Shrek 2
3. Harry Potter & The Prisoner of Azkaban
4. Chronicles of the Riddick
May 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Van Helsing
April 2004
2: CT EL Obs(3)
4: Kickboxing[4]
5: CT Maths Obs(4)
6: CT EL Obs(5)
9: Good Friday
10: Brother's Birthday!
9: Good Friday
11: Kickboxing[5]
14: Sup Meets CTs
16: Last Day of Pract II
18: Kickboxing[6]
24: EED200 Report
25: Kickboxing[7]
Movies Caught:
1. 50 First Dates
2. Koma
March 2004
1: Gym Session
7: Kickboxing[12]
8: Mum's Birthday!
8: Gym Session
13: 1-wk Vacation Starts
14: Kickboxing[1]
19: My Birthday!
21: Kickboxing[2]
21: Outing(Seraph)
21: 1-wk Vacation Ends
23: CT Maths Obs(1)
24: CT Sci Obs(2)
26: NIE Sup Obs(1)
28: Kickboxing[3]
30: NIE Sup Obs(2)
Movies Caught:
1. The Haunted Mansion
February 2004
1: Hari Raya Haji
2: Outing(Seraph)
3: EED200 Grp Report
4: Outing(Seraph)
6: NIE Pract II Posting
8: Kickboxing[8]
9: HDB(Get keys)
13: Visit new house
13: Pals Gathering
14: Valentine's Day
15: Kickboxing[9]
16: NIE Bazaar
17: NIE Bazaar
17: ECM202 Quiz
18: NIE Bazaar
20: ECE202 Ind + Grp
20: ECM202 Ind
22: Kickboxing[10]
23: 1st Day(Pract II)
26: Outing(Seraph)
29: Kickboxing[11]
Movies Caught:
1. Peter Pan
2. Big Fish
January 2004
1: New Year
4: Kickboxing[4]
6: Appointment(Hair)
7: Outing(Seraph)
11: Appointment(Hair)
11: Kickboxing[5]
12: NIE Sem 4 Starts
12: Outing(Seraph)
13: Outing(Seraph)
14: NIE Bazaar
15: NIE Bazaar
16: NIE Bazaar
16: Outing(Seraph)
18: Kickboxing[6]
21: CNY Eve
21: Outing(Seraph)
22: Chinese New Year
23: Chinese New Year
25: Kickboxing[7]
28: NIE Pract II Briefing
28: Outing(Seraph)
Movies Caught:
1. The Last Samurai
New Year Resolutions:
- Continue to think positive
- Have at least an overseas trip
- Have more relaxations than work
- Eat healthy and exercise regularly
- Be more successful in my life and work
- Be more joyful and loving at heart than 2003
- Find my Mr Right and be more down-to-earth
- A new home, A new working environment, A new me! A fresh start!
For the Month of August
To Do List:
- Catch at least 2 movies
- Gym sessions once every week
- Bible sharing every week
- Every Tuesday nite out
Schedule:
August 2004
1: Pilates[6]
3: Play at DBS Art Ctr "Woman in Black"
4: NIE(Collect gown)
6: Gym + Movie
8: Pilates[7]
9: National Day
10: Gym + Outing
13: NIE Graduation(SIS)
15: Pilates[8]
17: "Yes! You stand a chance, Seraph"-2003
17: Holland Village(Michelangelo's)
21: Submit Application(SIM)
22: Pilates[9]
23: Seraph's DOB
24: Orchard(DOME)
28: Teacher's Day Dinner(Suntec)
29: Pilates[10]
Movies Caught:
1.House of Daggers
2.The Village
3.NoteBook
July 2004
I was Missing In Action
Recuperating from the broken Relationship ...
Movies Caught:
1. King Arthur
June 2004
I was Missing In Action
28: 1st day in School
Movies Caught:
1. Home on the Range
2. Shrek 2
3. Harry Potter & The Prisoner of Azkaban
4. Chronicles of the Riddick
May 2004
I was Missing In Action
Movies Caught:
1. Van Helsing
April 2004
2: CT EL Obs(3)
4: Kickboxing[4]
5: CT Maths Obs(4)
6: CT EL Obs(5)
9: Good Friday
10: Brother's Birthday!
9: Good Friday
11: Kickboxing[5]
14: Sup Meets CTs
16: Last Day of Pract II
18: Kickboxing[6]
24: EED200 Report
25: Kickboxing[7]
Movies Caught:
1. 50 First Dates
2. Koma
March 2004
1: Gym Session
7: Kickboxing[12]
8: Mum's Birthday!
8: Gym Session
13: 1-wk Vacation Starts
14: Kickboxing[1]
19: My Birthday!
21: Kickboxing[2]
21: Outing(Seraph)
21: 1-wk Vacation Ends
23: CT Maths Obs(1)
24: CT Sci Obs(2)
26: NIE Sup Obs(1)
28: Kickboxing[3]
30: NIE Sup Obs(2)
Movies Caught:
1. The Haunted Mansion
February 2004
1: Hari Raya Haji
2: Outing(Seraph)
3: EED200 Grp Report
4: Outing(Seraph)
6: NIE Pract II Posting
8: Kickboxing[8]
9: HDB(Get keys)
13: Visit new house
13: Pals Gathering
14: Valentine's Day
15: Kickboxing[9]
16: NIE Bazaar
17: NIE Bazaar
17: ECM202 Quiz
18: NIE Bazaar
20: ECE202 Ind + Grp
20: ECM202 Ind
22: Kickboxing[10]
23: 1st Day(Pract II)
26: Outing(Seraph)
29: Kickboxing[11]
Movies Caught:
1. Peter Pan
2. Big Fish
January 2004
1: New Year
4: Kickboxing[4]
6: Appointment(Hair)
7: Outing(Seraph)
11: Appointment(Hair)
11: Kickboxing[5]
12: NIE Sem 4 Starts
12: Outing(Seraph)
13: Outing(Seraph)
14: NIE Bazaar
15: NIE Bazaar
16: NIE Bazaar
16: Outing(Seraph)
18: Kickboxing[6]
21: CNY Eve
21: Outing(Seraph)
22: Chinese New Year
23: Chinese New Year
25: Kickboxing[7]
28: NIE Pract II Briefing
28: Outing(Seraph)
Movies Caught:
1. The Last Samurai
New Year Resolutions:
- Continue to think positive
- Have at least an overseas trip
- Have more relaxations than work
- Eat healthy and exercise regularly
- Be more successful in my life and work
- Be more joyful and loving at heart than 2003
- Find my Mr Right and be more down-to-earth
- A new home, A new working environment, A new me! A fresh start!
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