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Pray for me...friends out there...
Some things are running in my head and I am not convenient to share through this blog now. I am not sure who will be reading this and I am not going to take the risk to write it now. I will be fine soon... I hope so too. Just like days without you...
From the day you said that we never started, I am deluding myself and you just want to have a platonic relationship with me, my heart had shattered to thousands of pieces, just like Cinderella's glass slippers. You want to leave, I would not force you. As I promised you, I will respect your decision. I love you more than you love me. This you should know. although I do not want to, I had let you go as you have strongly decided I will not want you to be in a difficult position. You do not need to worry. No body will know about the two of us. I am not and will not tell anyone, except for her. She's my only soulmate there and hope you understand. I will not do silly things to result you to be in a difficult position. You can be assured. No matter how I feel, whether regarding you and me or other stuff... I will not slip our past out. So just be assured and do what you need to. I promised you I will not bother you again unless regarding work. So I will keep my promise to you, just like I always do. Please stop being concern about my life when you had decide to let go of me. You should be concentrating on other stuff as this may led to other chances of me to delude into things I should not anymore. I believe you do not want too. I want to stop this pain ever since the day you left me without a word. You walked out of my life. I treated this as my love one was dead (apologise me for that)... He left me without a word. This shock and disappointment will be overcome as time flies. I am letting all the past to be gone with the wind. Just as you said... "ashes to ashes and dust to dust". So just leave me this way.... I just want to remember the sweet days we are together and not remind me of all the sad and heartbreaking past we had. Enjoy your studies and your work. I pray that you will meet and find a even much much better gal than me that deserves your true love. Take care and will remain as only COLLEAGUES and nothing else. I feeel a pity not able to give you bottles of stars to fill your room with my love for you. I know where I stand and you need not ask your buddy to remind me anymore. I won't give you troubles, no more. God bless....
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